Somehow I am making a big change for myself and so, I’ve started this blog and deleted the old one. The problem with me is that I’m always trying but never really DO what I want to do. But this time, I’m determined to do it, instead of just trying with whatever I’m planning to do.
Throughout the second half of 2009, I was having difficulties in Perth and all I ever wanted was to go back to Kuching. I kept running, every time things goes wrong and when I forget, I’ll be me “Happy Happy Joy Joy”. Towards the end of 2009, I enrolled myself to a Mandarin Class in Kuching during the summer holiday to forget and learn the language. I met Alston Chin (AC/Als) but we started talking in 2010, precisely the first week of January. In a short period of time, we became friends and I get to know Kelvin Ting (KT/Kelv) too. Als was there when I was having a downfall and he stayed for a very long time. Knowing him for a year plus feels like I have known him forever. Before I know it, I’ve gotten to comfortable with him and I took everything for granted. Every time when I think I can’t handle things, I would go to him whining, crying, angry, you name it he’s there for it. Sometimes it wonders me how he could put up with me through all these times. Nonetheless, I am thankful to have met him, knowing him makes me want to be a better person.
Today, I’ve decided to keep distant from Als. It was because I’ve became too dependent on him. I rely on him too much that I don’t even use my brain as I was always running to him for every thing and any thing. It’s bad to depend on others too much. Like me, I’ve lost myself. I don’t know What I want and so on. So, even though I am going to miss him but I got to suck it up and just get my shit together again. After I get every thing straighten out, I guess I’ll look for him. To be honest, I’m not sure if things would be how it was and if we were really meant to be friends for a very long time (like how he said). Then, we will meet again, when everything’s the same.
It’s also Father’s Day! So I will let the pictures do the talking.
Other than having some quality fun time with the family. I went to a wedding, grandma asked me to accompany her.
Just as advice, Don’t ever use colored bra when you’re using something white for your wedding. The groom is the Belia & Sukan’s Trainer because when I saw them walking in, I was ” the man so buff” Then, Aunty Na told me that he’s the trainer for muscle thingy stuff.
To end today’s post, I wish everything will go well and I will get through this. I do know that I’m already missing Als. But I got to do what’s good for me.